OCTOBER 1983
· LOVING GOD – BRAIN-MIND QUOTE – WORLD CONDITION – SERVICE OF THE CHRIST – REAL ONE WANTS TO COME THROUGH –EXPERIENCE PRESENCE –SHARING THE TEMPLE –SPEAK “IT”- THE SITUATION IN TEACHING SOMETHING – SOMETHING HAS TO BE DONE – BECOME PEOPLE WITH A VISION – BE IN SERVICE OF THE CHRIST – REFLEXIONS IN THE POND
We start with Loving God.
Self-reflexiveness, wanting to, ideas, reaching toward, etc. may appear -- we forget them and continue with Loving God. If it is impossible, we continue still, Loving God through all three steps:
Loving God
Sharing the Temple
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From here, all practice is a way to give out that All-Encompassingness, All-Encompassing Love, and All-Encompassing Beauty.
Learn to give it out.
"When the Pilot dwells in the All-Encompassingness, He is said to be the Seer."
"When the Pilot dwells in the All-Encompassing Love, He is said to be the Knower."
"When the Pilot dwells in the All-Encompassing Beauty, He is said to be the Doer." As you know, from time to time I like to quote others
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As you know, from time to time I like to quote others so that you realize I am not the only one saying certain things. So, I am going to read from an article that I found in Brain Mind about a book Ken Wilbur has written called "Eye to Eye":
"The transcendental paradigm," he says, "aims to include all sources of knowledge: hard science, soft science, spiritual experiences, but each realm has it's own means of gaining knowledge. The 'eye of flesh' perceives the external world, the 'eye of reason' knows philosophy and logic. The 'eye of contemplation' aspires to understand transcendent realities. Each way is valid in it's own territory, but inappropriate in others. Those who insist on a literal interpretation of the Bible, for example, have confused contemplative knowledge with rational knowledge. Proponents of religion too often defend their beliefs on the basis of the wrong category and the culture loses it's contemplative knowing."
I would like you to face a situation. In the group, when we meet together, you are usually stuck because you use the eyes of reason instead of the eyes of contemplation for what is at hand. This means that, in a way, you are using the wrong instrument. Then you wonder why it doesn't work. I'll come back to this point.
Wilbur also speaks of something else regarding the confusion of pre-personal and transpersonal.
"The three ways of knowing are based on three major states: pre-personal -- undifferentiated identification with the external world; personal --identification with the sense of oneself and the ability to reason; transpersonal -- identification with the totality."
I see this very often. If you follow what's happening in a lot of groups who seek "higher" knowledge, this mistake is made constantly -- losing oneself in a kind of undifferentiated fog, pretending to reach a kind of higher condition, when they actually revert to a former condition. This is why we insist that when a higher awareness is at work you are more precise, not less. You are more defined, not less. This is how you recognize that you are not in a pre-personal condition.
"Because both pre- and trans- states differ from the personal, they tend to get confused with each other. Critics see transpersonal wholeness as a pre-personal lack of boundaries. The rational is therefore seen as the ultimate realm of understanding."
Now we live in a period of time when this is actually happening. The rational is seen as the ultimate realm of understanding. This is what you are told at school, all of education is based on this. So don't wonder why it happens to you, you just reflect the condition of the whole of humanity.
"For instance, orthodox science sees human development moving from a child-like sense of nature to a culmination in personal ego and rationality. Because no larger framework is acknowledged, some scientists and psychoanalysts view spiritual experience as pre-personal, that is, regressive. Religionists may err in the opposite direction, seeing the innocent pre-personal as a state of grace to which we must return. This view fails to acknowledge the use of reason and the rich complexity of the transpersonal."
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Today I would like to introduce you to a broader scope. I would like you to tune to the world situation, so that you may open the doors and the windows of the enclosures you usually have around yourselves.
As you have noticed, there are people in the groups who are malcontent -- some even begin to feel a deep pain, not just unhappiness, but deep pain. I would like to also approach the problem of pain, so that you may realize how closely you are related to mankind. As you know, we are very close to a kind of holocaust, a lot closer than you imagine. This means you suffer from a very deep uneasiness that pertains, not just to your condition, but to the condition of the whole of mankind. The anguish triggered by the specter of nuclear war is rampant all around the world -- that anguish you feel, that anguish you live, you cannot separate yourself from this human condition. It's a condition lived by all of mankind, no one is immune. All this means that your outlook toward the future is not especially bright, and you have a tendency to gear everything toward doomsday knowingly or unknowingly.
I say these things for you to realize that you are humanity. If you really realize it you might begin to realize what we do here. Part of our work is to deal with you as humanity. It's the main part of what we do, and you respond as humanity. This is very different from what each individual, divided from the others, may think.
Please recognize in yourself the state of the art of humanity of today. You behave as mankind as a whole does, and much of the discomfort that you attribute to items, to people around you, to your work, and so forth, stems from the collective drama -- you belong to it. Much of your personal condition is not due to your personal problems, either in the group or in your private life, but rather to the collective situation. You are used to looking at your problems as being yours alone. Learn to recognize that we face another condition pertaining to the whole of mankind, and the issue for mankind is a lot bigger than your own.
Let's face, for instance, some practical situations. With this group we have two different types of sessions, Service and Calisthenics. Everyone prefers the Service. Some even dare not to come to Calisthenics, even when we say you need the training. What happens in the Service, when we work with the music alone? You are much more at ease, because the Service is not for the persons, it's for Christ and the real you. As soon as you go back into Calisthenics and you start "minding" you're not at ease, and that lack of ease comes to the point where some of you feel deep pain.
Now we have two pains. We saw the pain of the human condition. The other side is the urgent need for your divine side to come out. You unconsciously feel that need, you cannot explain it or express it, but you want to do something about it, and you do it with the eyes of reason. Then you realize that it doesn't work.
I wonder if you realize that people have lost the values that existed in the past. Ken Wilbur speaks of the eye of contemplation. People no longer know what contemplation is. Contemplation means "taking into your temple" or "the temple," but mankind has lost the sense of the temple. Of course you have a minority that hasn't, but the minority is so small that you don't see it and you follow the general trend.
Let's think, for instance, symptomatically. Psychology is a Greek word which means "science of soul." If you go into the academy today, I just wonder how often you will hear the word "soul." Possibly never, or possibly to deny it's existence. Psychology has turned into something purely mechanical. It is somewhat sophisticated, I agree, but it is a kind of mechanics, with no awareness of soul. This means from the time of the Greeks to today, the sense of soul has been lost. Now if we come closer in time, Jung still had a sense of soul, but I'm afraid that today this is gone. How many psychologists address the soul? Now I'm not criticizing psychology, I'm giving you some clues that indicate we have come to an all-time low in values, and we do not realize it.
To give you a larger outlook: Ancient Rome became decadent and lost it's power. At that time the ruler believed that all the people needed was bread and the arena. This is what lost Rome. Now in society, as you know it in this country, there are two major preoccupations: bread and the arena (or show business). Look at the TV, look at sports -- it's just distraction, circus. This is the condition of the society we live in.
We tell you the book leads to the possibility of fitness to face something that is totally unknown. With the society's mind you simply cannot. I'm sure you have tried. Possibly you can do it for one second, possibly for two or three, but by the fourth second there is something intervening. You don't really know what is meant by facing something totally unknown. You have to do it steadily, until the mind adjusts. It's a training of the mind, and it has to be done.
Contemplative knowledge. In your mind you don't know what it is. The first image that comes is a kind of vague spiritual condition. Now take, for instance, St. John of the Cross. Try to go with him through the three nights. The night of the senses, the night of the understanding, the night of the soul. Night means night. Nothing works, everything is black -- not black the color, but that condition in which you face something that is totally different. You have a huge, black void, and you learn to face it. How did he come to that knowledge? Contemplation. Contemplation brought him to precise knowledge.
But I would like you to realize why you feel that pressure going on that makes you uneasy, and can, I agree, be very painful. I know what it is. There is a good reason, and one you may not realize. There is a tremendous pressure for Presence of Christ. And I add, as usual, "whatever that means," because your mind is not fit to define what that is, but your soul is fit to get into connection with it. We are in the service of Christ. People are speaking of a second coming of Christ. We don't speak of a second coming. He was always here. If you know the symbolism used in astrology, for instance, in the Picean Age everything was hidden, only those who worked esoterically, meaning initiates, could deal with Christ. In the Aquarian Age which is coming now (not in the future), what was hidden comes to the surface. Presence of Christ will be felt.
We happen to be involved directly. We are in the service of Christ. This is our reason to be here. This is also the reason why you are here. So you might realize suddenly why you are more at ease in the Service. In the Service you are a lot closer to your true reason for being here. The structuring we do here pertains to that Christ Life, allowing you to come closer to that real Christ Life. Of that we cannot really speak, but we can do it.
We cannot speak of it because the minds are not fit. You have minds from a condition before the bridging of the gap. Your mind does not know what the human condition actually is. It relies on what the sensory awareness says. We are here for something very different. You are using the body. You are not the body. To whom does that body belong?
The crisis you are confronted with deals with the urgency for the greater value, the divine value to come out into the sunshine. You feel it, you know it. it is soul knowledge, and when your mind grasps it you are suddenly lost. You feel the urgency, the urgency can be so big that it is really painful. It is really deep, not surface pain. Deep. It means there is an awareness of the need of the divine side to come out into the sunshine. But there is an urgency. It is the Presence of Christ, and what relates to it, the presence of the real you, that will heal mankind.
If you look, you will see that an individual works in exactly the same way as mankind as a whole. Look at your consciousness, at the inability of that consciousness to reach the higher condition. This is where mankind stands. The higher values having been lost, he no longer knows what to do. Now, technically speaking, when the higher value is lost, it means you have the opportunity to find it again, but in another way, mastered instead of seen.
You are meant to come out as what you really are, not according to your dreams, but according to facts, positive facts. One of the reasons it is so hard on you is because of expectancies you have, dreams you have, fictions in your consciousness, images from the past. You have to learn to face what is working now without reference. Remember the three nights. It's a good image: no reference whatsoever. Then realize that it works, it comes out, and it changes your person.
The instrumentality has to be retrained in order to adjust to the new situation. Realize that your instrumentality is trained to act according to the human condition of today, not according to what you really are. This you have to retrain according to what is needed so that you can use it and express the way you have to express.
But the pressure is now. The urgency is now. We don't have time in the groups to bicker about points that are not important. Respect that basic life of yours. Live that life all the time. Teach consciousness to respect it. Go along with it. Allow it to work. Consciousness is trained to deny it, but you have grown too sensitive. One of the aspects of what happens here is that you grow sensitive to higher values, even if you don't know it.
Thinking of it, I have a proposition. If any of you is unhappy with what happens when you work among yourselves, please work on it until you're able to express it clearly. Then, if you cannot convey it to others, come and see me. We will see together what can be done or not done, or what it really means.
There is one psychological point that is usually overlooked, and again it relates to the contemplative aspect rather than the rational one. If you make a proposition, and then you have a feeling you haven't been heard, and you come to me and say, "I said this and that and they haven't received it," I would have to say this is not what is shocking you. You are used to saying things that are not understood. What is really happening behind that is the need to be recognized, as what you feel you are, and you are using the device of a proposition. But then you don't know what you are, so your proposition is not clear, it's not even full of your real life, but you expect others to recognize your real life. This is one of the reasons you feel happier with me than with the others.
Of course, sometimes you are unhappy with me too, because I answer with basic principles, whereas your mind wants a detailed, step by step response. I tried to show you, for instance, with the Exercise of Balance that when you apply basic principles you solve things a lot more easily, more easily than when you concentrate on items or steps. But I don't complain, I'm used to not being heard, so you can understand that I know what you mean.
Participant: I would like to try to expose something right now. When you had us do that exercise on bridging the gap, doing it ourselves and then linking up or connecting to what you are doing... I feel I'm in a really tricky place with that. I feel that I have to establish my own work, in a sense, coming out with my own function.
Martin: May I stop you? Did you notice how you changed just now? In the beginning you had the feeling of the situation around you, there was that greater whole, and as soon as you started saying, "I feel that I the other was gone. You now have the mind and some plexus sensitiveness remaining which has a memory of the condition, but not the presence of the condition.
If you take the position of observing how consciousness functions it is fascinating. You don't establish a value judgment, you discover how consciousness works. First you lived the situation as a whole, then you started processing. Processing is self-validating. I give you certain laws of psychology to show you that things work a certain way and you have to take them into account.
I just wanted you to experience the two conditions, because when you act your effectiveness depends on the presence of that condition. There are two points you must respect: what you actually can do and that presence. The more steadily these two are brought together the more the effectiveness.
Now if you want to continue to expose, please do.
Participant: I don't think I can.
Martin: How come?
Participant: It's too painful.
Martin: So we face that pain again. It means you are desperate about that presence coming out, and the pain is because you try to push and it doesn't work. I wish all of you would realize, when you reach that condition of pain, that it is very important. it is a clue to how urgent it is for you to awaken to another reality.
That pain is rampant in the whole of mankind. They are trapped in a system and something has to crack somewhere. It's true for mankind and it's true for you. Because you realize that you are trapped and that you cannot come out with the current system, the real you grows desperate. The real you has to handle that person, but it cannot according to the old way, and the pain makes you aware of it. I would say appreciate the pain -- it's not agreeable, but the point is not that it be agreeable. When you have passed that stage you will realize that you will pay any price willingly -- including giving your own life. It's not a rhetorical image, it's a reality as real as the pain.
But please realize that when that pain is active it means you have to recognize another order of life. You have to, and not according to the system of consciousness working at the moment, but according to itself. I have been trying to tell you for a long time to train to face something utterly different. Here we have something that is not utterly different, but sufficiently different for you to realize that the system of consciousness does not work for that. You have to deal with it differently, and dealing with it differently means you have to face what you really are and let it take over.
The real one wants to come through. When the real one wants to come through, it has to reorganize the whole personality and that includes the whole consciousness, according to its needs, not according to nature's needs. Nature's needs are taken into account, but according to its presence.
I have said these things for years, but now, little by little, you become more sensitive, the other part becomes more active and you feel it more and more, until you are facing a deep crisis. You have to give way for that reality in your life.
Participant: The part in me that is so painful is just screaming right now. I can't live here. I can't live in this. Something is not allowing a certain...
Martin: Exactly.
Participant: It does come through, but when I come here, something takes place that does not allow for that to be what I know it is. I'm torn apart inside to come and address the situation because it's so desperate.
Martin: Okay. Maybe you are not the only one feeling that way.
First, please realize that the situation outside reflects a situation inside -- I mean in the way you grasp it. So you first have to solve the problem yourself, symbolically, inside. When this is done, maybe something still remains to be done outside, but if that inside is not taken care of the outside correction will not work. See what I mean? This is why we always have those discussions of this point and that point, when in reality we deal with something completely different.
Then there is something else. memory. You have known the group for a long time. You have the memory of it, and certain values that have changed in between remain in your memory and effect your judgment.
Participant: I've given a lot of thought to that, and each time when I come I know I have to come here cleanly with a fresh start. And I have to take the responsibility to make that decision here, as cleanly as I can, as possible as that is, without that memory.
Martin: okay. We'll come back to the same point: memory. What is here? You express a problem we have in the whole group, I'm grateful for that. Things have to come out, and you happen to express it, but the problem is: what is here? The mind says: these people that room. What is here?
Participant: I don't know.
Martin: Now suppose you come here, fresh, clean, as you said, in the "I don't know" -- meaning you have the courage to face something you don't know. You would be surprised.
Want to make an experiment? Sit for a moment in Georgette's chair -- whatever that means, and whatever the chair is.
(Participant goes to chair)
Close your eyes and forget about the group. In your mind, look at the situation of mankind and the need to bring the Presence of Christ into effectiveness. Open your eyes. Stand up, but stay there.
Now do you realize that you live something that you do not understand? Your mind tries to grasp and cannot, but there is evidence of something a lot bigger. A lot freer. Something of a different quality altogether. Isn't it?
Please realize the problem we face. We speak always of that greater life, and you have the mind that wants to grasp it, and it is not fit for that, and thus pretends to be able to deny it. You must learn to respect and stay with that until it comes completely through that temple called "personality." See what I mean?
We are involved in an action that relates to Christ directly, without the usual mediation. This is what allows me to say that the relation between the real you and the situation determines the effectiveness. Everything in between is relatively irrelevant. I cannot say it is completely irrelevant, because instrumentality, higher mind, the usual mind, emotions, the sensory, and what is to come, are needed, but they do not determine the effectiveness -- contrary to what the rational mind thinks.
In this period of time, the rational mind pretends to direct everything, and your experience will be that the closer, the more real that presence is in a situation, the more effectiveness there will be. It can be disturbing, but look at the condition of mankind, very little is needed to start that huge fire, this you know. Every situation is kind of tricky, and everything is handled in ways that are not correct. Everyone does their best, but it's not sufficient. You do the same and it's not sufficient. Please realize the close relation. You are part of mankind. You cannot ignore it. There is a need for you to recognize that other presence.
We have spoken of the mask and the comedian. We have spoken in many ways. We come to the point where we have to stop speaking. It has to be done, and labels are useless. The real you does not describe, as far as words go, what you actually live. I say "the real you." You may use another word, possibly you invent a bright new word, but the word is useless -- it does not and cannot cover the all-encompassingness of your presence, until you learn to stop abstracting with consciousness and start living the whole as whole.
Consciousness abstracts, it takes parts, if you want, out of context, out of the whole. It perceives and you miss the context. This is the state of consciousness. This is how it is trained. There is no judgment of value whatsoever in what I say, it is simply the human condition of today. Learn to face the human condition as it is.
There is something you might understand in the mood you are in. Eighty percent of the work we do is not with you, and in the remaining twenty percent, we are testing, in these samples of mankind, the response of what we have to deal with. We do not speak of pre-personal, personal, and transpersonal, the scale is completely different. The language, the behavior does not start from personal condition, not at all. We have to adjust our own persons, as you do, constantly, every day. There is constant movement, but according to what is needed, so that it may come through. Then we test that adjustment on you to see what is needed in order to obtain a response. This is the biggest part of the work we do with you. Suppose you awaken to that reality and start doing the same. According to that Christ Presence, you adjust, until you can do it super consciously, then consciously, and handle your person according to that Presence.
Christ Presence is not sensory, it's not emotional, it's not mental -- it's something you cannot define with consciousness. So don't project childish images of Christ that awaken a plexus reaction : "O". When you start Loving God, at first there is you and God -- and there is emotion, there is mind, there might even be sensation. You feel bigger, freer, whatever, and you feel that, yes, definitely you Love. And you go further, and further, and further. You take away the sensory, take away the emotions, take away the mind, and there is still Love. Suddenly you discover what Love is -- what it really is. You realize that what you call "love" is a reflection of something very real. In the reflection there is Love, but the sensory takes the reflection for the reality. The real you takes Love for the reality.
When this happens, you will be ready for contemplation, sharing the temple. Now that may be hard on some of you, because from then on you are no longer alone --Christ is present. Your body is his body. Then there is "O." But I'm afraid it's too early to speak of this.
But sharing the temple -- I would like you to realize that it is a reality. You share your situation with the whole of mankind. There are local details that are yours, if you want, but the principles at work, the problems at work, and so on, are not your own. They belong to mankind, and they happen to work in you as well as in others. So expand a little bit, be less possessive , more realistic.
On the other side, we are here to do a work, to help Christ. It's a very specific work, and it has to be done in certain ways. This means a certain mastery of the personality. The exercises in the book are meant to develop the ability to express with instrumentality, instead of in spite of instrumentality. Most of what you know of your experience is here in spite of your instrument. This means that we allow you to experience conditions that are not very clear for your mind, but that you live in spite of your personality. You will learn in time, as soon as you understand that Christ needs help, that you can do things in situations in spite of your own instrumentality.
But there are things that need instrumentality. For instance, I speak, I need the physical body for that. I can convey differently, as we do at the Service, but it doesn't come down to your consciousness, so we have to speak. Little by little you learn the difference between speaking about it or speaking it.
But be careful of the way you handle your person. You have to share that person with Christ one day, and this is not done with the mind. Sharing of the temple is done because of evidence, not because of reasoning or desire. Reasoning or desire have no part in it.
Please realize: If you take all the symptoms that you experience, these are problems of humanity as a whole. Values drop and drop, and what remains is sheer brute force as a means of solving everything. This means we go down to the most primitive aspect. This prepares the way for what?
This is where you have to be attentive. When you are in a situation you always have to ask yourself what the situation is teaching you. The situation you are in, the difficulties you have, the pain you have, the despair you have, these are the means used by circumstances to teach you something. If you have the courage to approach it this way, and really be attentive, sometimes you will find what is asked for. You do what is asked and everything is solved. Then there is a sudden relief, because you have heard.
Let's suppose you really realize that Christ needs help, that means you are no longer in a position of asking. Even if you never ask, society is doing it all around you, so something in you is doing it also. You have to outgrow society.
It's like having parents. You have lived in a time where children went away from their parents and ignored them completely -- they want to do their own thing. Now man was made in the image and likeness of God, there is work to be done, but the children don't want to do it. One day you mature and you realize that you cannot get out of society. You cannot get out of mankind. It's still there, you still have to take care of some aspects. Then you might realize that you came to earth to do something -- this pertains to service. You awaken out of your childhood and suddenly realize that something has to be done. And that something that has to be done is not done by propositions, it's done by the presence of yourself. You now have enough experience through the years to realize that when you are together and you make propositions and have discussions it is fruitless. Something else is at stake. And please don't say that "in order to come out you first have to ...." No, the action is non mediated. There is no in between.
When we work together in the service you live a different condition. There is not the usual business of asking: "Please allow me to do something for you." The in between is skipped.
Jesus said, "It's not me but the Father in me." He also said, "The Father and me are one." This you do not dare say. Where is the problem? The limitation of consciousness. Consciousness has been developed separated from the divine aspect, and we now come into a time, actually it began 2,000 years ago, when things come together. Show respect for that Father in you, until you are able to be that Father. But if you are not able, meaning the consciousness is blotting out the sunshine, stay with Loving God.
And remember, Loving God is not generating a current that is called "love" from you toward God. How can you generate All-Encompassing Love? You cannot. The consciousness has no sense at all of of All-Encompassingness and cannot generate All-Encompassing Love. One day you will realize that it is already here, already at work. It's simply that there are veils. So, there are steps to be taken, and the steps are to be taken now.
Don't put things in between all the time. If you really love your normal tendency is to help, to give, and, as we say, Christ needs help. once you begin to realize that Christ needs help, you become people with a vision -- that means you no longer work for yourself.
But then there is that other awareness that comes out of that void. There is an activity going on and we happen to be involved in it. It is really true, you can really sense it. But it can be very disturbing also, because you have your true reason for coming here, and then you face what you do with your minds, the behavior of the person, and so on, how far you are from what is actually going on, and then you complain you are not being heard.
Do you begin to feel in you, in the real you, that you actually mean to serve? Do you begin to feel that all your endeavors are simply poor, unskilled expressions of the need to serve -- I mean real service -- and your mind believing in those unskilled expressions rather than what stands behind.
You might begin to realize what we mean when we tell you we see you differently. You are a lot more than what you imagine. When I check what I see with what is in your mind, the image is always too small. Always. One-hundred percent of the time. I have never seen a mind make an image greater than the reality. It's simple logic. Once you know the reality, you see it.
The mind is not yet adapted to the real situation, it has to be retrained -- not by the mind, by the presence of you. Stay with your true need to serve, in spite of what the mind says, in spite of the fantasies, exactly as you are here. If it is impossible, then continue Loving God. If your mind doesn't understand, you still continue.
Up to now, I have had a hard time conveying that you can actually do it. I know what it is, I went through all that. It is not because your mind does not understand, or that the emotional or sensory cannot follow that you cannot act. You can. And in some instances you are a lot more effective not using your consciousness. When we have the Service, or even now, I know what I do, but it is not the consciousness that does it, this is perfectly clear. Seen from the consciousness it is the Father in me, it's not me.
Now we have to be very careful with your minds because the major problems do not stem from you not understanding each other, but from each of you not understanding yourselves -- what you really are here for, and what the group is. Christ needs help. I give you the means, the ways, the propositions, so that you can do the things I do and still greater ones -- just as it is said in the Bible. If you have followed a little closely you would realize that I have always given you the means to check what I say. I thought it would open your eyes, but it didn't. Now we have to come closer because of the urgency of what is going on.
To be in the service of Christ is a reality, a non-mediated reality. When you tune to it, you sense the reality, you sense the urgency, you sense the need for help. There is a part to play. You are an incarnated being, this is a special condition. It means the real you can bring that Christ quality or Christ resonance right down into the incarnated condition. It's not easy, but it has to be done if you want to help mankind. The point is not whether it's easy or not, the point is that it has to be done. As you have noticed, we do it to some extent -- whether you follow or not, whether you hear or not, it has to be done. We are in an incarnated position so we do it, whatever the cost. And, believe me, we pay a lot. I don't wish you to have my place. Perhaps you do, because you don't understand that the greater the task, the greater the responsibilities and the greater the difficulties. A work for mankind is a work for mankind. You have to stop making childish images. This is no place for a child, unless the child be a child of God.
Questions?
Participant: When that greater being acts, it's clearly effective, the mind can see this, but what the mind can't see is the direct change. It appears to be random. I'm used to acting from the mind and I don't see the direction ...
Martin: Here we have a point that I want to pick up for everyone. Respect the fact that the mind does not see the direction. Learn to be honest with the situation. Here he expresses the mind working at random and not sensing the direction. when you train that personality, you have to teach consciousness to be objective and truthful. This pertains to one of the two points that have to be respected: presence and the situation. Now in this situation, for instance, you realize that the mind behaves in a certain way -- this is the situation. Don't allow your desires to deny it. Don't give the mind more power than it has. Stick with the situation.
Participant: okay, it's true.
Martin: It's absolutely true. So, you solve your problem by coming back to that presence all the time, all the time, all the time. The quickest way is Loving God. You cannot love God, be with God, be in God, be in front of God without vibrating in the same way. Even if you are dualistic, if you persistently face God, you will start sensing that you are vibrating differently -- your awareness of self will be different. You will experience yourself as being different from what the mind pretends. This means that you will, little by little, face, not the ego,which is an image, but a first sensing of the real you.But be truthful, when you observe aspects in yourself say : Today this is what I experience. Acknowledge it and be objective. Learn to see the play of consciousness: the pretense of some parts of the awareness? that is, the wanting of the emotions and the mind trying to say you are not emotional. Learn to be honest, perfectly honest.
And remember, if you are a certain way at one time, it does not mean you are so all the time. It means you are so now. Ten minutes from now it might be different, ten days from now it will be different. Get used to the change.
But the important point is always to come back to the basics: Loving God.
Find that part of yourself that actually does. There is a part that has a natural closeness -- and this is not the ego. Let's make it a little more real. We'll play a piece of music again.
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Now I have a question for you: Do you realize that when you are in that position of service to the Christ, everything makes a lot more sense. You are in the process of starting to realize that if you want to help mankind the real you has to come out. You are asking for it in many ways: by asking to be heard, by asking to be allowed to do something, by asking to take care of a group. In reality you are starting to face a real situation. But don't criticize the reflection, go into what is behind. It seems that your reflection is being ignored, but it is not. It's just that you don't realize that it is only a reflection, a hint of another dimension that wants to express, that reflects, as best it can, through the personality, on whatever level is available. But when you come to the real point, everything begins to make sense. But that means you must respect that, until the respect is such that the center of gravity locates itself at that level. Then you can change the person -- not just the mind and the emotions, I mean the whole of it, including the physical body. We work and change every day -- not just once a year -- because the action requires more and more -- whatever more is. Meaning presence must always be more obvious and instrumentality has to adjust, so we, whatever that is, modify the person. I do the same work as you do, but I do it a bit more thoroughly, a bit more consistently, and not for me.
There is service to be done, things to be expressed, aspects to be adjusted to human level and the person has to respond. The point is that the person respond, whether it understands or not. Little by little he does understand, but you cannot wait for understanding in order to move. You cannot.
From the position of service you can act on the person very consistently, but you have to be that presence coming into that situation. And if you lose that presence come back to Loving God, or, if you want, Loving Christ. It's very effective.
I want you to be aware of the planetary situation of mankind. This is as of now. The help is needed now. I am trying to awaken you from your dreams in which you think you have all the time in the world.
Do you have questions? I want you to be clear. if you want to check something, please do.
Participant: The first piece of music really seemed different from the last one you played. The second piece seemed that it wasn't moving as much as the first one. I wanted to check that with you.
Martin: I would say in the first piece you had the solo voice coming in and out, and the choir, this created movement. In the second piece it was a a lot calmer. So subjectively you might be tempted to see what was calmer as having less movement, but we did not give less movement to the second piece.
There is another finer point: With the first piece of music I had to bring you up from ordinary level to something higher, but in the second one it was not needed, so we played higher, more steadily, this also might be a factor in your impression. It is for you to sort out the proposition of subjective (due to the music) and objective (due to the action) impressions. I could tell you, but that wouldn't be good, it has to come from experience.
Here we have a situation that is pretty common. She is a musician and able to follow the movement of the music more than people who are not musicians, so it might be less easy for her to differentiate between the actual movement of music she lives and what we put into it. What I'm trying to say is the actual movement of music is less obvious, so it interferes less with the other feeling. But, on the the other hand, knowing the movement of music, you can abstract it, then you see the other movement. See what I mean? You have to learn to do that. Maybe sometimes you do it automatically, it's a possibility in consciousness. I mean if you are aware of several movements you can abstract all the movements except one and follow that one, then, if you want, you can follow another one. So that you can be more aware of what the nature of the movement is. Speaking to the rational mind it simply means you concentrate on one movement rather than another one. But you can do that livance-wise too.
Participant: When you recognize a change, is it necessary to try to identify it qualitatively? I don't know how to ask the question. I'm trying to make the difference between analyzing the change and not doing that, and, at the same time, identifying qualitatively the condition, the change, or what have you. For example, when you came in tonight there was definitely a change, and with each piece of music there was a change, am I supposed to identify the qualities of that?
Martin: Oh, yes. Definitely. But then if I answer that way you are sure to get trapped because you are going to do it with your mind. Now the proposition is this: What your mind grasps is an abstraction of what is really going on. So if you want to identify a quality, you have to realize that what you have abstracted is only symbolic, or a reflection, of what is going on. So you drop the abstraction and look up to what corresponds to that abstraction in reality. It's like the image of a tree seen in a pond. You have to learn to look up to see the real tree. It's a difference of position. It's also a difference in dimension.
So I say, yes, you have to identify, but it implies lifting your eyes, changing the angle of view. If you identify by analyzing on the level of the abstraction, you never have the real movement. This is one of the reasons why you feel you are not heard, because of this confusion between the real tree and the reflection of the tree in the pond. Your proposition that you are not being heard is on the reflecting (pond) level, and what you live is on the tree level. Then you complain that the tree level has not come through. This happens all the time. As we have seen today, your complaint arises mainly because the real you has not come out.
Your consciousness does not realize that it reflects and that it has to stop reflecting what is really going on. It is one of the exercises of meditation to calm that pond until it is mirror-like. This pertains mainly to the emotional side of man. If you can calm the pond, then you have the ability to go from the reflection to the real a lot more easily. otherwise you have those wavelets on the pond, and you have to guess what the reflection is in the wavelets -- not realizing that you simply have to lift your eyes.
But I say "yes" to your proposition that you have to be aware. You have to know what you do. Transpersonal is not pre-personal. Remember that. And remember, from now on, that with your mind you are part of mankind, but in another way you are mankind. What is going on in you is not just going on in you. Then realize that if you have problems, these problems exist in the whole of mankind. If you feel that you are distracted, realize that this is a feeling pertaining to the whole of mankind. If you feel the desperate need for that presence to come through-out, this also exists in mankind.
So, if you want to help, start first with Loving God,, until it is real. You somehow sense that we know what we speak of. it is real. Do you dare stay with that knowledge and act accordingly?
Service to the Christ is always for the whole of mankind. Then you might begin to understand what I've said for a long time: Deal with your own self as a sample of mankind. It is real. It's not a figure of speech. You do away with possessiveness and you learn to realize where the priorities are. If you serve Christ there is Presence of Christ throughout. You live in Christ. Few realize what this means, because the eyes see out, and so you have a hard time realizing what "in" means.
Now we are going to play the last piece of music. We are in the Presence of Christ, and you are for the whole of mankind.
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